ready or not…

the hard reality about being obedient to Jesus & about saying yes to world race is that it doesn’t always look or feel the way you think it will. sometimes it looks like me sitting in a puddle of tears thinking about leaving my best friends (some of almost 10 years), leaving my parents, and pretty much leaving everything i’ve ever known and everything that is ‘comfortable’ for 9 whole months.

 

it comes in waves…

 

one minute i’m seriously ready to pack my bags and go and then the next minute i’m crying into my moms shoulder and asking God why he gave me the hardest path He could think of. I hate the way that sounds but it’s true, i find myself asking God why he couldn’t pick a more comfortable and simple plan… because i’m scared. i’m scared to live a life completely different then anything i’ve ever known. i’m scared i may not always be able to remind myself in painful times like this how sweet jesus is for calling me on this journey to share His word. i’m scared that i won’t physically, mentally, or emotionally be able to handle this change. but all of this is also one of the best parts about Jesus, he pushes you to feel. i mean really feel. to deal with the hard stuff. to dump out all the fear, anger, bitterness, and worry and give it to him.

 

in mark 4:39-41 the bible talks about jesus calming the storm and jesus asks “what are you afraid of, do you not have faith?”. fear is nothing but a lie from the enemy and in the presence of Jesus it holds no power. because when you empty all of the bad and give it to Jesus there is more room to be filled with joy, peace, confidence and grace… so much grace. so in this moment of fear and the many more moments to come, i’m giving it to Jesus and i’m gonna praise Him even still, even now. praise Him for the journey, praise Him for the fact that my worries are never too much or too big, and praise Him for giving me so many sweet people & things to miss back home.

 

World Race, with open arms here I come. 

 

-mags